Greetings all... I'm currently on the road posting through a labtop with broadband connection... what a world we're living in. We have about a couple of more miles until we make a rest stop and then another 2 hour to finally make it into the middle of nowhere known as Pedernales Falls... and most people around me are already sleeping. I guess rest would be best because we're going to have a LONG hike ahead of us. It gets dark around here at around 6... and we should be arriving at around 5. And after a 2 hour hike... it should be pitch black when make camp. Alot of the new comers to the group are calling us bluff but they'll see. Since Guillermo's leaving to Cali. next week... we're going to try to make this a great going away party. The batteries dying so I'll try to post back later.

hmm... I got to meet Goober's new girlfriend (or the girlfriend of the month)... and she seemed pretty kewl... quite fickle... but other than that... she was pretty down to earth. I just shared a couple of drinks with Goob and left when I felt down for the night.
yup... after a couple shots of tequilla and a couple bottles of Bacardi Silver... I feel great. Driving home was a snap... even though I was going 85-95 down the freeway... don't worry... I never get drunk or "messed up" beyond my alcohol tolerance level... which is pretty high now.. no matter how much I drink... I never seem to get alcohol poisoning or hungover... but I rather not push my limits... my liver is probably going to be shot to hell in a couple of weeks so I better hold back on the drinking for awhile.


man.... I really need to get another band started... with Guillermo leaving... and most possibly Brandon as well... I may have no one else of skill to jam out with. I'll just ask Goob if he's up for joining a band... man... it's 3 o clock already and i'm drained... i've been up since 3 this morning... so I better go try to sleep for a bit. I'll try to write more later on.

I've been delaying the post of this... there was just too many questions... but I finally finished it... so here it is. A test that I got from good ol' Abby. Why she's so noisey... i'll never know.

ABOUT ME...

Name: MiKe
Nick Names: Kyren
Birthday: 01/28/84
Age: 19
Born in: Galveston, TX
City/State you live in: South Houston, TX
Heritage/Background: dunno...
Do you wear contacts or glasses? Nope
Shoes or no Shoes: shoes...
Socks or no socks: socks...
Do you like yourself? sure why not...
Most Embarrassing Moment: I guess it would be when I walked into a store dressed in a giant chicken costume and tried to buy 2 dozen of eggs. Was more fun than embarrassing but that's all I can think of. (note: I was not the first time I was dressed as a giant chicken, and it probably won't be the last time either.
Your future kids names: never gave thought...


FAVORITE...

Ice Cream: Anything Ben & Jerrys
Food: good ol' fruit
Dessert: Ice cream I guess...
Candy: Twix and m&ms I guess...
Gum: spearmint...
Beverage: Mike's Hard Lemonade
Time of Day: Night
Movie(s): The Crow, The Matrix, 13th Warrior, Braveheart
Actress(es): Selma Hayk, Elizabeth Hurley, Cameron Diaz
Actor(s): Robin Williams, Jim Carry, Mel Gibson, Brandon Lee, Antonio Banderes, Johnny Depp, Mike Myers, Ben Stiller
Place to visit: my bed...
Salad Dressing: never like salad dressing
Color(s): black, blue, grey, white
Color to Wear: black & blue
Thing To Wear: clothes
Sport(s) to watch: football, baseball, fencing, hockey
Quote: "Love is Suicide" ~ Billy Corgan


YOUR FUTURE SIDE...

Dream Car: sentra... already got it...
Do you want to have kids: undecided
Are you going to College: already there...
Married or single: probably single...
House or apartment: house...


FRIENDS...

The last person you talked to on the phone: Marcus Bernstein
Best Smile: Johanna Leal
Craziest: Josh Kraft
Loudest: Romulo Nunez
Best Buddy: Claude Thomas
Funniest: that's a hard call... we all have our moments...


OPPOSITE SEX...

Your largest age difference in a relationship? two years...
(gotta have some kind of moral...)
Have you ever been in love? countless times
Best feature(s)? eyes, personality and A SENSE OF HUMOR
Kind of Kiss? light and gentle...
Love at first sight? yes...
Do you get along with the opposite sex? ultimately...


HAVE YOU EVER...

Cheated on a test? na... never saw the need...
Been on a blind date? nope... well not that I remember...
Been on a talk show/Game show? nope...
Been in a fight? Hell Yeah! I am a guy ain't I?
Been out of the U.S.? countless times...
Been on a plane? yup...
Come close to dying? it's like my trademark bid...
Shot a gun? Hell Yeah! i'm a texan ain't I?


WHAT IS...

Your good luck charm: I dont care for charms...
The most embarrassing CD in your collection: don't think I have an embarrassing Cd in my collection...
Your favorite thing for breakfast: Chili
Your favorite thing for lunch: Chili
Your favorite thing for dinner: Chili
Your favorite Restaurant: Waffle House
Your favorite CD: "Gish" by the Smashing Pumpkins


WHICH IS BETTER...

Coke or Pepsi: neither... Dr. Pepper
Oranges or apples: Apples
One pillow or two: one
Blondes or brunettes: brunettes
Tall or short: short
TV or radio: radio
Solid or Stripes: solid
T-shirt or Tank top: t-shirt
Cookies or Cake: neither... muffins
Movies or TV: movies
McDonalds or Burger King: neither... jack in the box
Dairy Queen or TCBY: Dairy Queen
Day or Night: Night
Swing or Slide: slide
Never loving at all or loving someone and losing them: loving and losing
Chinese or Japanese: Japanese
Vanilla or chocolate: vanilla
Silver or gold: silver
Alone or together: alone
Summer or Winter: winter
Shower or Bath: shower


ARE YOU...

A Vegetarian? not anymore...
A Good Student? heh... should I even answer this?
Good At Sports? yea...
A good Actor/Actress? kinda...
A good singer? depends on the style...
A deep sleeper? nope
Shy? na...
Outgoing? depends where it is that I'm going... woods and forest.. then hell yeah... if its to clubs and such... then na.
A good storyteller? I use to be... i haven't told any stories in a while...
Happy? define happy and i'll give you an answer...


HAVE YOU EVER HAD...

Stitches? nope
Bloody nose? yeah
Cancer? nope
Heart Attack? nope
Broken Bones? yeah
Enjoy parks? yeah
Like Picnic? not really
Like School? depends on class
Collect anything? swords and medieval gear
Like to sing? na...
Like to shop? na...
Do You Like Roller Coasters? sure...


WOULD YOU...

Eat a live baby hamster for a million dollars? no way... the hamster doesn't deserve that fate because of greed...
Ever get a tattoo? probably...
Ever get any body parts pierced? hell yeah...


MISCELLANEOUS...

If someone offered you a small part in a movie would you except? depends on the movie..
Where do you live? here...
How much money do you have right now? why you asking?
What advice can you give? what do you need advice on?
You have a secret you have never shared with anyone? i've shared all my secrets already...
Have you eaten in a restaurant alone? yeah...
Have you gone to a movie alone? yeah...
Does life treat you well? well...life's a rollercoaster... it has it's ups and downs...
Do you cry easily? nope...
Your first name spelled backward is? ekim or neryk

A little stress has been taken off of my shoulders... as I am now off of school until Monday. Lucky me... well... once again... the incompetence of pasadena drivers has been proven very factual once again. Of course... i'm glad to have my nimble sentra... in which I barely avoided another car accident... but instead of hitting me head on... it sideswipped the car behind me that was turning off into a grocery store. I didn't make a u-turn to see if everyone was alright due to all the traffic that usually gathers around edgebrook so late in the evening...and as usual... the news didn't report it so... i'm guessing that everyone made it out okay. I swear... cars in Pasadena are like attracting magnets to each other. I'm done rabbling for now so... laterz.

I'm bored off my ass right now so I just decided to post one of my lyrics on here for all to see. The night has grown harshly cold... and since it's been raining all day... it's quite unbareable to be outside right now... ignore me... i'm having a wide variety of emotions (love, hate, depression, confusion, boredum and ect) flowing through me right now but I don't want to bore you all with those. I'll just go back to listening to my Smashing Pumpkins cds for a while. If you want, let me know what you think of this lyric by emailing me at chaoticgoblin@imaterrorist.com


"Umbra Nocte"

why am i shrouded and plagued...
by all of these undesirable things?

I continueously lay here
awaiting the venom finish...
strewing its way through out all of my veins

I fade away...
I fade away...
I fade away...
into Umbra Nocte...

please hold me in...
closer... to your heart...
as the... closest person by far...

by each passing day...
i'm slipping ever closer...
by each passing day...
i'm slipping even more closer into insanity...

I love you...my bitter sweet...
desired... beautiful...
I wish... only for... one more better...
ever peaceful moment with you...
but as I fade... there will be no more days...

For I... fade away...
I fade away...
I fade away...
into Umbra Nocte...

Please hold me in...
Please hold me in...
Please hold me in...
closer to your heart...
as the... closest person by far...

one world... one chain...
one reason... that I stay...
and that's for... my beautiful...
my beautiful...
my beautiful... soul mate...

by each passing day...
begin to fade away...
by each passing day...
i'm slipping even more closer into insanity...

hold me in closer... closer...
closer into your heart...
i'm slipping closer...
even closer...
closer into insanity...

I fade away...
by each passing day...
I fade away...
closer into Umbra Nocte...


copyright © Broken Moon Music 2001 - 2003

So sore... again... last night was pretty interesting... i'm not going to tell the full night... but i'll post a bit. well... we first headed off to a couple of jazz coffee houses that had some pretty awesome performers there last night. after reminiscing there and sticking around to closing time... we drove around and head off to our own "mischief" for awhile. I'm not going to tell you what we did there but I meet this pretty cute chick named Andrea (man... after a while she started to freaked me out... which isn't easy to do.) and then at like 5-6 o clock in the morning... we ended up playing "Corporate Monopoly." Now you haven't played monopoly until you've played a game with large corporate mergers and the stock market. ... I'm done now.

You are a Benevolent Ruler.

Your distinct personality, The Benevolent Ruler might be found in most of the thriving kingdoms of the time. You are the idealistic social dreamer. Your overriding goal is to solve the people problems of your world. You are a social reformer who wants everyone to be happy in a world that you can visualize. You are exceptionally perceptive about the woes and needs of humankind. You often have the understanding and skill to readily conceive and implement the solutions to your perceptions.

On the positive side, you are creatively persuasive, charismatic and ideologically concerned.

On the negative side, you may be unrealistically sentimental, scattered and impulsive, as well as deviously manipulative.

Interestingly, your preference is just as applicable in today's corporate kingdoms.

What is your medieval "Kingdomality" Personal Preference?
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well... that's pretty close. I would have prefered Captian of the Guard or even warlord but I doubt this test has those for answers. You know... I think this would have been Adolf Hitler's results as well... so should I consider this a good thing?

Well... it's barely 7 o-clock in the morning... but today is when drop the "broads" and hit the town Little Rascals style as "the He-man Womanhaters". Well... not exactly haters but ya... no girls that WE know are allowed to tag along. And no Mindy and Abby... just because your tomboyish doesn't make you one of the guys...sorry... (I'm going to get hit later on huh?)

On other news... Brandon (Mr. I don't want to play music)...8)... is learning how to play guitar. How quickly his mind changed after being New Moon Insanity's roadie after two gigs. hmmm... just thinking about it... didn't we promise him a helper monkey and a roadie knife? oh well... if he doesn't remember... then I don't remember.


okay... just so I don't have to say this another hundred times... by reading this I have all right to throw something at you and/or hit you for asking me the following:

(Note: by reading these answers... you've thrown away all rights to complain about forgetting what I told you already more than once. My Answer will be in BLUE.)


01) Are you going on to Pedernales Falls?

Yes... stop asking...

02) Can I have a ride there (Pedernales Falls)?

No... I'm probably not going to drive on this trip...

03) Do you have any AA Batteries that I can borrow?

No... I stopped buying packs and started buying rechargable ones so i'd save money by not giving you half the pack each time.

04) Do I count as one of the guys?

Unless you literally have a flesh, homegrown penis... then NO.

05) Why are only guys allowed tonight?

Because... me giving you an insight into the masculinity of a guy's mind is something you probably wouldn't understand even if I drew you a picture. (no i'm not drawing you a picture either.)

06) Is that gum?

oh yeah...

07) What do you think i'll need for the Pedernales trip?

scroll down... and read what I posted earlier... i'm not repeating myself.

08) What should I wear today?

nothing...

09) What are we going to do about food? (Pedernales trip)

once again... scroll down... I've already covered that as well...
(stop calling me a jerk and scroll down and learn how to be self dependent)

10) Where do babies come from?

Where else? The Nineth gate of hell.... of course


The sad part is that Marisol has asked/ will ask at least 7/10 these questions... (yea... I realize i'm going to get hit again... so I figured I might as well make it really worth it.)

Damnit... My heart aches more now than it ever has before... i've been having dreams of Shawney more frequently... and it's really starting to kill me inside. I think posting the story of my bitter sorrow only refueled the pain and did nothing to ease the mind from it's daily dose of torment. On the exterior... i've let her go and even fallen for a girl whos' beauty to me is so overwhelming and her intelligence makes her down right sexy. I'm not going to sit here and describe who would be considered my "perfect" mate. Even through all that i've fought against... I myself wear a mask to conseal my pain... to bottle up my feelings in attempts to distort my depression, fury & rage. Kill me now... please... LET ME GO!

I'm insomniating again. Yup... the world seems so peaceful at night... the echoeing silience that is nothing-ness. I'm just starting to babble so i'mgoing to go try and sleep. think sleep will do me some good.

Howdy! Howdy! Howdy Ya'll! Good ol' Texan accent... that I really don't have. (well not that bad at least) Hey guys (close friends only sorry)... it's "guy's night out this weekend... so if you want in... get ahold of either me, guillermo or brandon... so far... we're thinking about checking out this jazz/blues coffee house we found while driving around good old downtown. After that.. we'll probably be off into our own mischief (as always).

Besides that, the weekend after Thanksgiving we're all planning a hiking/camping trip at Pedernales Falls. Guillermo and Brandon are in charge of this activity... but if you must... get ahold of me if you want me to let them know you want to go. I really don't want to drive on this trip... so traveling with me may be out. Besides... my car's engine needs to be serviced and I currently don't have the money to do it.

*** If you want to go your going to need: ***

* Your own supply of food / Rations: Damien screwed us with the money pot idea last time... so this time it's everyone for themselves

* A sleeping bag and/or something to keep you warm: we are going to be close to wolf peak... so the draft WILL FREEZE YOU!

* A tent : Trust me... you do not want to mess with those raccoons and will want something to block the wind and i'm sure you can find someone to share a tent with. Trust me... having a partner in your tent is a good idea... the warmer the better... but try to stay comfortable.

* Flashlight : this is obvious but essential... we will literally be in the middle of nowhere so chances of it getting pitch black is very possible...well the exception of starlight... that's right!... I said STARS!... if you've ever been to a place that lets you see a shooting star every 5 minutes.. then you know what i'm talking about.

*Comfortable shoes preferably hiking boots: We will be hiking about a two hour to a two and a half up from the parking area to our camp... so you had better be comfortable

*walking stick (optional) : this is a good idea because going up some steep rocky trails can be quite straineous after a while... and besides... a stick always makes a good weapon when need be... 8)!

*Canteen or something to carry water in: the hike can get tiring... so water isn't such a bad idea... and the water at the site is natural spring water... but if not boiled it can give you diarrhea... it's important to know! but not all the water is tainted. The water at the falls is so pure... it's literally rejuvenating!

*Camera (optional) : The falls are a beautiful and inspiration sight to see... so why not take a pic of it back with you. I'll try to post you all the pics I took in the previous times we've been there. Besides the falls... the cliff and the woods are a pretty good sight as well.

* Hiking bag (preferred) : Of course I made it through with a backpack and alot of rope before... but remember... that's me... and i'm good at jimmy-rigging everything to anything... and I'm quite creative about doing it... (Everyone from the last trip knows what i'm talking about. 8]!) so a hiking bag is preferred... but I don't wan't any of you to go wasting pretty pennies on one. but you will need a bag of sorts.

* Something to entertain yourself with (optional) : last time alot people went to sleep and made it rather boring... so this time... I myself will be prepared for that.



NOTE: As i've expressed so many times... we will be hiking so please don't bring more than what your willing to carry up and back. I don't want to carry everyone else's junk this time. Sorry... I don't mean to be blunt and mean but whether your male or female... you will be EXPECTED to carry survival equipment that will be needed for the group. (such as burners, propane tanks, bear sacks, pots and pans, and ect.) Of course... me, guillermo, brandon & marcus usually carry everything but pending on how many people go... and if we need help... I don't want to hear anybody complain about it. As I said... I don't wish to be mean... I just want everything to go smoothly... and I won't over pack anyone purposely so i'm apologizing ahead of time. So no complaining... almost all you girls (with the exception of Karla) complain that we pamper you all too much so here's your chance to prove it's not all words. 8)!

...it's 1:09 AM right now and it's still pouring down outside. And once again... i'm having another case of insomnia... I guess I never really could sleep easy ever since the grim day Shawnann killed herself. It's such a hell of a burden to carry such memories... I know... but I would never want to forget her. Not many of my friends today know of her... but that's probably due to the fact that most of my friends today are older than me... and besides Johanna, Abby, Romulo and Claude... she was one of the few friends I had that was my exact age. I don't know why I don't get along with my peers very much... but for some reason I'm okay when the person is either at least 1 year older or younger than me... but not the same age. Very few my age are my friends... so if your one of this limited few... feel good that you meet some critique of mine that I subconsciously have.

It feels like I force pain onto myself... for the purpose of guilt... but I do not understand what it is that I regret. In my mind... I have no regrets for anything that i've done... but in my heart... I feel that I have done something wrong. But maybe that's it... "I have no regrets for anything that I've DONE..." ... maybe the subconscious guilt is coming from what I didn't do that I should of. I do not know why I destroy myself over the past... but maybe that's it. Finally putting these feelings into words has opened my eyes... Am I blaming myself for Shawnann's death?

She was my first true love... I loved her with all my heart, and I still love her to this day... there will always be a void in my heart that shall remain empty til the day I die. A place only she could have filled. We were inseperateable... best friends to begin... than a the "perfect couple"...and now a tragic end...

Why do I feel so damn powerless? How could she have been so weak? Why didn't she talk to me? Why couldn't we have found her sooner?...

... It seems that after it all... everyone could tell that she changed me. When I was little... I had few friends... mainly because I didn't care about "human interaction"... course... I met Claude and Travis back in elementary... and they're both still two of my best friends. Back in those days... their was hardly reason to smile... my area was quickly turning into a slum... with gang wars breaking out almost every other night, the crime rate in my area was at one of it's highest peaks while everyone around me seeked out acceptance... everyone except me and claude. Life was quite bitter while I was little... most of the other kids were always smiling... maybe because I was one of the few my age that knew the truth about the world around me. Incompetence can bring happiness... knowledge can bring grief... what else is there to say? I middle school... I had acquired alot more aquantences... and a few more friends. In 7th or 8th grade... I can hardly remember... but I met this girl... who had just moved here from Wyoming. When I first saw her... she had pale skin, thick black glasses, dirt blonde hair, stone washed worn-in jeans and was wearing a KISS t-shirt. I dunno... why when she entered the room... she stared at me... and came and sat to the closest desk near mine... it might have been the ZERO t-shirt I was wearing in comparison to everyone else being dressed up in collar shirts but I dunno. Just to straighten out the atmosphere... most of the other girls at that school... were mainly very prissy and bitchy... and more than half of the guys didn't know a word of english... that's our tax dollars be well spent. I can hardly remember who it was I use to hang out the most with besides Claude, Travis and James... but after she showed up... and we introduced ourselves to each other...we were practically inseperateable. Everywhere I went... she went and vise versa. God I miss her... some of my most brightest days are when I was with her. She was a guitarist and I was a bassist... how could we not be anymore perfect? I remember we use to compose all sorts of songs about love, partying and stupid things. I thought it sucked when she moved back to wyoming after her freshman year at our highschool. We kept up a great distance relationship... always writing letters, sending emails and talking over the phone whenever one of us got a phone card. She would tell me about her day and about her new band she had started and i'd do the same. And suddenly one day... she didn't call... I thought nothing of it and called her but had no luck. About a week later... I got a call from her mother telling me the grim news... and she told me everything she knew... and she began crying and asking me if I knew why... I didn't know what to tell her. I eventually calmed her down and we said our final goodbyes. I layed away for three days at a time... as I remembered all the moments we had together. Ever since she departed during my junior year in highschool... my music has been all gothic / blues sounding... with my roots of Jazz and Funk. My lyrics quickly became all about anger, depression, suicide, and as of recent... very dark and political. i'm am generally losing my will to talk about this subject anymore... i've already said more than I should... but I guess it's quite good to get some of this stress out and in the open... for my friends to see... one of the reasons... I am who I am today. Here's a couple of pics of my sweet angel Shawnann... course these are ancient... and the only pic I had of us together... I gave to her the last time my eyes gazed upon her before she left for wyoming. Shawney... I miss you.

Pic 01 - Guitar junkie
Pic 02 - Beautiful Angel

yup... it's raining like crazy today. It wasn't so bad this morning... but on my way home... it got kinda horrible. There's been talk of floods and tornadoes and everyone was kinda afraid to leave the college... but I endured it... almost got sideswiped by a dumbass driver... but thank the spirits that my car has great brakes and maneuverablity. All it needs is lazerguns and then it would really kick ass! lol!

Edgebrook (the street, not the band) is extremely flooded (again) so I guess i'm not going to see my nephews today. hmmm... according to this weather advisory... Harris County has a flood warning, tornadoe watch, and thunderstorm warning all at once. Haven't seen that kind of report since Allison. oh well... at least there's a good breeze right now. Just thinking about that... this is one thing I hate about Texas. After all of this... it's going to be humidy like a b*tch later on. well.. at least I don't live in Florida... the humity over is quite worse... so I guess I should be grateful.

On another note... Ren. Faire was fun and yup... i was right... I was sore. i'll write more about it later.

Greetings everyone... I just got back from the tourney and i'm already out the door. Just thought i'd give an update on how everyone did. Sadly, I placed 2nd and wasn't able to get my "C"... but my best friend Marcus won 1st... and i'm happy for him. Besides... by winning... he can no longer compete in our local tournaments due to his high standing ranks and now that he's out of the picture... the next "D & under" tournament (The Trojan War) I will go unchallenged. I'm heading out to Ren. Faire. tonight to meet my friends that have already been encamped there since Friday. I'm going to feel like shit tomorrow... so i'm not sure if i'll wear my armour and weapons or not. Peace out everyone. It's getting rather late gotta go... so I'd better go. CYA!

Thank god I only have 1 class today... now that is... as I said before.. I dropped 2 classes which really helps me out. I know... I going to have to take composition I next year but meh... it was an easy class... and next time... i'm going to request a different professor.

Okay everyone... I lied about something. I planned on not touching a sword today... but it was just too tempting. I guess playing with sharp shiney pieces of metal is my only weakness when it comes to will power. oh well. I need to double check my weapons anyways. The last thing I need is to show up and none of them register in the scoring box... like at the Summer Nationals.

I really need to go to the store and buy something to cook... but then all my "limited finances" would end up feeding everyone else except for me. I really wish rick didn't invite so many damn people to eat at our house. I usually end up cooking by the way... oh well. Maccaroni and corn... sound like a plan to me.

I'm baby sitting christopher today. Today was suppost to be my day off... but grandma said he kept yelling " I wanna go to Mike's House... uncle MiKe... I want it!". For those of you that don't know... i'm known as "Kyren" to some and "MiKe" to others. I'm even known as "Kyle"... not sure how that name came out but oh well.

Blah blah blah... i'll write more later.

Okay... I know about 3/4 of my friends are females and more than half of them are going to want to kick my ass for posting this but oh well... i'll endure the countless threats against my "life" but it would all be worth a good laugh. This is the man's view of certain things in the world.


For the guys...

*How many men does it take to open a beer?
... None...It should be opened by the time she brings it.

*Why is a Laundromat a really bad place to pick up a woman?
... Because a woman who can't even afford a washing machine will probably never be able to support you.

*Why do women have smaller feet than men? . . . It's one of those "evolutionary things" that allows them to stand closer to the kitchen sink.

*How do you know when a woman is about to say something smart?
. . . When she starts her sentence with "A man once told me . . ."

*How do you fix a woman's watch?
. . . You don't. There is a clock on the oven.

*If your dog is barking at the back door and your wife is yelling at the front door, who do you let in first?
. . . The dog, of course. He'll shut up once you let him in.

*What's worse than a Male Chauvinist Pig?
. . . A woman who won't do what she's told.

*I married Miss Right. . . . I just didn't know her first name was "Always".

*I haven't spoken to my wife for 18 months:... I don't like to interrupt her.

*Scientists have discovered a food that diminishes a woman's sex drive by 90%.
. . . It's called a Wedding Cake.

*Marriage is a 3-ring circus:
. . . Engagement Ring, Wedding Ring, Suffering.

*Our last fight was my fault: . . . My wife asked me, "What's on the TV?"
... I said, "Dust!"

*In the beginning, God created the heaven and the earth and rested. Then God created Man and rested. Then God created Woman. Since then, neither God nor Man has rested.

*Why do men die before their wives? . . . Because they want to.

*A beggar walked up to a well-dressed woman shopping on Rodeo Drive and said, "I haven't eaten anything for days." . . . She looked at him and said, "God, I wish I had your willpower."

*Young Son: "Is it true, Dad, I heard that in some parts of Africa a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her?" . . . Dad: "That happens in every country, son."

*A man inserted an advertisement in the classified: "Wife Wanted." . . .The next day he received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing: "You can have mine."

* The most effective way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget it once.

(November 13th, 2003 in Quenya Elvish)

i'm so damn tired today. It took me forever to lift myself up and for about an hour more... my right arm felt like it was dead. It felt so numb that I couldn't feel or move it... not even a finger. And to makes waking up today even worse... I fell from my bed straight onto the floor. I think I may have been working myself way beyond my physical limitations. Mentally I have the will to go on... but my body just cant seem to support that factor. Thank god it's thursday already. After I train today... I don't plan on touching a sword until saturday. That should give me all of friday to rest.

To my friends from South Houston Fencers Club & Clear Lake Fencing Club:
Sorry guys... as I said nothing personal... but I can't allow anyone to beat me this saturday. I'm heading off to fence at Clear Lake tonight just as a warm up and to measure the maximum of my skills against the most "favored to win" fencers.
I know... normally I go all out until I get 2nd or 3rd place then kinda just quit but this time... i'm going straight for 1st so... I advice you all try to do your best in the pool so you won't have to cross blades with me... at least until the final elimination rounds.

Well... I better get started on today's practice... catch everyone laterz!

Well... I feel more relieved today. Yesterday I finally got around to talking to my counselor and I dropped two classes: Composition I & Computer Animation. As I said... I had no real chance of passing Composition I because I was being graded on my views... which is quite bad for a libral in a conservative's class. And I dropped Computer Animation because... it was frankly just too easy. Well... i'm feeling a bit hungry so i'm out of here. Maybe I'll get around to writing more later.

okay... the Matrix revolutions was a big disappointment... considering the fact it was like a bunch of ripped off ideas slewed into a 2 hour movie. Ideas that where ripped off from: Dragonball Z, Mechwarrior, The Matrix (1st movie), 1000 leagues under the sea, and ect.) The Return of the King better not suck... or else that my be the drawn line for me to go out and become a director and make GOOD movies!

Okay... now that i'm done ranting about that... I'd like to tell everyone sorry I've been hard to get a hold of lately. I've been out training vigorously for the "D & under" tournament that will be held this saturday at the South Houston Fencing Club. Ahh... a chance to compete against my old club. Sorry Marcus... sorry damien... sorry Marisol... sorry Dunaway... i'm going to have to run through you all and the rest of this year's team... nothing personal... I just want to upgrade my National Rank to "C". Not even Phillip is going to stop me this time like he did at U of H... At the U of H tournament... I had nothing to gain... I was just measuring everyone's strengths and weaknesses.

Just talk about South Houston Club... what happen to you guys? I heard you all got your asses kicked at Clear Lake. Last year...we alway held the top 4 places... now I hear you all get beaten around and the highest person got 7th? I guess... you all are way too dependent on Marcus.

Hey Abby, Cristal & Marisol.... I know you three can do way more better than 17th, 23rd and 25th place. I've helped you three open up your attacks and increased your aggressiveness. What happen to all that? Dunaway has been telling me that you three have slacked off and are being to laid back now.

Abby... please don't get discouraged. I see you always get discouraged and start giving up before the bout is over when you start losing by more than 3 points. You need to keep your mind focused... I can no longer help you with that... I've giving the knowledge to obtain skills beyond me... but if you don't strengthen your confidence and learn how to focus your mind... your not ever going to earn your "E". I want you to earn that rank and I want you to earn a medal at least once. I have confidence in you... please don't let me down.

Cristal... I can't express this enough... you need to center your gravity more... your leaning forward way too much and the result is that your exposing your front right arm shoulder. The flick is going to kill you... if you don't pull that shoulder back. Other than that.. you have a great lunge and good bladework... but you need to keep an advanced lunge distance... if not... your just going to impale yourself over and over again. And please... trying putting a little bit more strategy into your attacks... I know your wild flailing attack method gets you points but when your fencing someone of my skill level or higher... your going to get killed right after your first failed attack. The whole extending and un-extending of the arm for every attack takes up way too much time allowing your opponent to get you several times.

Marisol... now your the most experienced one of all three of them. You've been fencing for 2 years longer than I have... I would figure that you would know what your doing... Here's some more bit of advice. Your way too drawn back... you need to become more aggressive. In fencing... most female fencers are drawn back and afraid to attack... you should utilize that and just repeatly "pound her into the ground" with relentless amounts of aggressive attacks. (ballestra, double advance lunge, inverted lunge, fleich "Flesh") You've scored on me before (or did you... no longer talking about that anymore...only we know the truth... leaving that alone now...) you have skill to catch up with me. In the female event... is much easier than the mixed event. I suggest you just register next time only for the women's tournament instead of the mixed event. i know you like taking on the big boys... but your not gaining anything from it... as far as I've seen... your just getting the crap beaten out of you... and your leaving every bout more and more discouraged. In mixed events... males fencers can get brutal... and i've got brutal myself... if you dont remember the J.O. Qualifiers and the Summer National Championships. Alot people left those events bruised, with minor cuts and the one Aussie at the J.O. Qualifier left with a fractured knee after trying to ballestra me. Remember when romulo tripped me up while I went for a fleich on him and I sprained my ankle. Course from that bout you can also learn more about strong will and determination. On a sprain ankle... I got back on strip... scored three more points and won the bout 15-14. Earning my shot for the "D". Saying that i'm "D03" now... could already tell you what happened in the next round.

Okay... everyone else reading this... i'm not a sore loser and I dont try to injure my opponent purposely... things happen in a fast paced bout that none of us have control over. Even I get hurt and beaten. I hate it how such a noble sport is being infested by greed and revenge. Wish me luck everyone... for I am the Phoenix whom consumed himself in fire... emerged from his own ashes to be forever immortal. The "C" will be mine ...

You are a Phoenix.

"As it is said, The Phoenix consumed himself in fire only to emerge from his own ashes, to be forever immortal."

Your sheer determination and positive outlook on even the most dire situations make you a great ally to have. You have a way of looking at going through life as a journey that you can constantly obtain knowledge from. Not even death itself can break your great will.

Which mythical creature represents your soul?
By: the Plague Princess

So ti appears that I have somehow managed to get intenet back... and for free no less. This free service sux... full of all sorts of pop up advertising and such. No damnit i dont want a damn spam zapper! It's almost like that same popup window came up 7 times in a row. Lousy Juno... well... just letting all you guys know... i'm back on the web. No more borrowing my friends computer (for a while at least... heh heh heh.) oh... you didnt hear that. Well.. i'm off to listen to my rock & roll records and play my pacman video games... it's funny... that's actually what my dad says I do. man... now I have to go buy a pac man video game... oh hell.. i'll just settle for MEGAMAN! Well... on other news... as most of my friends know... Guillermo's moving to California on November 28. I'm sure his gf Bara is happier than Jello. Well... there goes 1/3 of my band. But I may meet him over there later on... and try to resurrect New Moon Insanity but under another name.